go away. leave me alone.

arghh.. my damn idiotic + fucking attitude is out todae.. was realli damn it pissed of sia.. it started off wif juvone saying we ps her.. arghh.. watever larhx.. i dun care too much le.. it's lyk a daily routine to me.. n perphas to chinhui too.. everytime seemed to me lyk me n twin's fault.. y cant it be once when she claimed tt it was all her fault? everytime when gt no one lyk tt den cum find me.. wat u take me for?? someone u wan den muz cum, and kick away when u doesnt need? i dont need ur existance. leave me alone. gt away frm me. u tink i dunnoe wat ur doing behind me? i noe wat's all happening. i juz doesnt wan to pick up a fight. if i wan, i can. dont test my patience. dere's a limit to everything. juz stop it. u claimed to be disappointed in twin n me.. bt wat abt urself? reflect. stop saying the things which does nt happen nor exist. wat u sae abt des is nt true at all. i already found out. if u tink tt u deserve better frens, den go for others. i'm nt ur type aniwae. i'm nt tt kind where u need, u call me. and leave me when i need or kick me away when u have ur gang of fren. i'm nt tt kind. gt it clear. u disappointed, me too. i dont believe tis is the real u.. i found tt tis has owaz been u.. my judgement is wrong. i've been wrong abt u all tis while. des, u r rite. i'm sry tt i didnt believe u. sry. huimin called me juz nw. i juz realise tt hw much she and jun would realli mean to me. jun. hereby i apologise to u. i didnt noe tt u have been wif me all tis while. i'm sry. thx fer being dere wif me. didnt regret noe-ing u n min. u 2 r my best gan meis. =D jie + mei fer ever =)

weekkk..

long long time didnt blog liao.. haixx.. juz gt back my geo test ytd.. so happi sia.. hahas. nt the few ppl whose name have been called out.. *lucky* thot i will since i fail the last 2 tests. decrease morale.. nw gt so 24/35.. kinda happi... den todae the geo map reading test gt 9/10.. realli glad ba.. hahas. gt back the e math test oso.. wah kao.. it sux lor.. 19/25 hais.. didnt expect larhx.. or rather i oso gt nth more to sae.. geex.. neber study den haiya.. oso dunnoe wat larh.. mdm ho seemed to be disappointed.. and shock ba.. (i dunnoe) she even asked me y i gt so lan results.. i oso dunnoe lehx.. den juz nw went to the tuition.. mr fadhil didnt cum.. gt the david tang hu came over as RT.. he alright ba.. quite funni.. bt he seemed to be staring at my direction.. his class oso quite fun ba.. hope tt mr fadhil would be back soon.. =] smilez.

out for the whole dae.

todae went to tamp mart, meet my twin.. suppose to study and help her in a math.. bt we ended up buying things dere.. hahas. i meet at the deck of her block.. and as usual she's late by a few mins =P hahas. actually the fact is i'm super early.. [caught the early bus] and i waited dere lyk a stupid fool [my twin goanna sae tt i'm one] we went to mac and i thot she hasnt eaten and asked her to eat wif me and i got back the answer tt she had eaten den i was lyk er.. okok.. den i went to order my food.. and i saw my cuzzin alex.. hahas. we tok.. bt i veri good lehx.. didnt make fun of him or so.. and saw bao xian too.. i was lyk -o-m-g- me and twin was dere giggling lyk hell.. we study nt for long.. onli for a few hours.. den we went to the usual bookstore and i bought smt.. i thot i have enugh $$ lorr.. den i short of a few cash.. den was lyk embarassed lorr.. luckily my twin wif me.. hahas. den she help me pay 1st.. lolx. i look lyk a stupid fool.. den after tt i went twin's hse dere and left my 2 thick books at her hse.. [tinking tt we will cum back later] after which we went to tm and cs dere for shopping.. she's damn loaded [hahas] and bought so hell lots of things.. den at the montip store which we went the person charge us $3 more lorr.. den we were lyk shock.. cos suddenly the price is lyk so expensive.. we went to check back and realise is the cash register problem.. luckily we gt go n check.. or else.. haiyo.. after tt we went lyk so much places tt i cant even rmb them so much.. [geex] den it was lyk 5++ le.. my parents called.. [haix] and i sent twin to the bus interchange at the 291 (green) b4 i walked to the bus top up card dere.. den after tt my whole family went to eat and shopping [again] saw kai liang, senghoe, wei dong [dong dong..], lenord.. tink tt all larhx.. when i'm leaving tt time.. den wangxu sae he saw me.. i oso dunnoe when larhx.. he msg me.. den i was lyk shock.. hahas. den i reached hm at abt 7++.. was damn tired.. haix.. goanna slp =) nite + swit dreamz to all.

sch com lab.

here i'm in.. the school com lab.. haha.. was here fer my history lesson.. on IT on world war I.. was so boring.. using the CD to do the work.. budden i didnt of cos.. hehe.. was farahdillah the one doing.. later den i copy frm her =P den mrs heng kept walking here and dere.. haix yo.. den later gt 3 periods of chem.. was kinda lyk -o-m-g-.. will be a long long dae.. thou chem rules. hahax. yes. it. do. ytd gt dunnoe hu msg me sia.. sae alot of things.. den somemore i dunnoe is hu lorr.. he sae wat.. he frm vs.. sae wat he noe me thru fren.. it seemed so wierd larhx.. wonder how he gt my phone no. and was tinking hu the hell was the person hu give my no. sia.. haix.. ask him den dun wan to tell me.. den ask if i gt stead sia.. den was lyk omg.. wat has me gt to do wif him?? i doesnt even noe him at all.. humph. wat right does he has to noe if i have anot? hahas. quite pissed off onli larhx.. mushroom kena sabotage.. he had to play gz at racial harmony.. whahaha.. i so bad.. hehehex.

marks..

i felt so idiotic todae.. my results.. hai yo.. chinese- nt wat i expected lorr.. gt 27 onli.. b3 haix.. thot can gt at least A2.. den 1 more mark onli nehx.. haixx.. all thx to my mcq compre.. gt 4 out of 10.. den my combined humainties too.. gt 7 out of 25.. was so upset.. haix.. bt it's alright.. cos i didnt study.. n never listen in class.. so, it's lyk the heck-care attitude lorr.. den saw 'belle wif her lao gong worx.. haha- no comments``

hurt.

u hurt me time and time again. y do u hab to do so? it hurts everytime when i realise wat have u been doing behind my back.. y? y? y? i asked myself if i did anything wrong.. i didnt.. u hurt me urself.. yet u does nt feel lyk tt.. i'm getting fustratrated and no one noe it.. can someone do take note???!!! arghh.. perphas u all noe i gt mood swings *sry* realli wanna to apologise to my twin.. she's been seeing all my mood swings and esp my class de ppl.. u did all the things.. u told me the things which my fren dey all neber sae at all.. u told me things tt does nt exist at all.. perphas u feel it's good for me, bt let me tell u.. all tis r nt ani where gd for me.. it may be great to noe someone is dere to care for u.. bt it realli hurts when u noe the whole story.. i felt living in my own fantasy when wif u.. everything seemed so fake nw.. *haix* i didnt want to sae anything much le.. everytime when i c u.. i feel so so sad.. i wonder to myself.. whether tis is the u which i realli noe so far.. i dunnoe if i still wan to trust u animore lehx.. i hope i can isolate myself frm u.. u hurt me too much le.. i wanna run away.. bt frm where? reality? i still have to gt back to reality one dae.. i will still undergo the pain i'm going thru.. i hope tis will end soon. fast enough. todae gt back the stupid e math paper.. feel lyk crying.. didnt expect tt marks.. thot can gt 35+ wan.. felt lyk such a failure.. math has neber been a problem wan.. nw it struck.. *sigh* perphas i'm juz overconfident liao.. the questions i thot correct wan lorr.. den all wrong.. hais.. my maths are dropping.. arghhh.. "help!" den todae.. gt the geo test.. study until lyk hell.. den all neber cum up.. wth sia..